~xX~ 16th April, 2011 ~Xx~
Hi all, I'm back to blogging!
Well, maybe not. Back may not be the correct word since I was never really got into it *though I did try* ><".
I just decided on a whim to come here and spout crap again.
Well, once again I kid, it isn't crap. C'mon it's my life, how could it be crap? Hahaha, at least that's what I want to think.
I don't want to whine, but yea I'm going to do so anyway! I feel like life is pretty unfair, I feel that life is a bitch. While everyone will tell you "Hey, suck it up, that's life for you.", you've gotta wonder, just how many percent of your life is actually made up by choices, both individual and external.
There have been a multitude of events since my previous post till now that have transpired and it has gotten me thinking alot. Throwing the good stuff that has happened over the past few months to the side first, I want to say that sometimes, I really feel that I should change my name to Misunderstood instead. That one word pretty sums up half my life. Since I was young till now, I haven't made many friends *Evident from facebook, social networks never lie!!! =X* but I have never regretted making what ever friends I have. If anyone were to ask me, how much do you treasure you're friends, I'd tell them that my friends mean the world to me. No matter how corny this may sound, I think that my friends, both new and old have pulled me through both my bad times and have enjoyed my good times together with me, and I love them all, no matter how they may treat me, I will always value what they have done for me. After all, it may be the present that we live in, however it is the past that we came from.
Cutting that wordy sob story short, I just want to say that no matter who you are, as long as you are my friend, I respect and cherish you, and will give way to you. Wrong or right isn't the point. It has never been the point and should never be the point. No one in this world is identical, no matter how similar we are. View points may clash and attitudes may cause sparks to fly, but in the end, if we all were the same, whats the difference between you and a mirror? While I may not be the best role model, nor friend, I try to be myself and give it my best shot. At least no one can come up to me, lap me across my face and tell me that I am a hypocrite. If I made promises, I keep them. That's how promises should work. And when I make friends, I make a promise to myself, to remind me that I have to be good friend. Doesn't matter if i'm not the best, but I just want to be genuine.
So with that said, back to the main point...
I may give way, I may stay silent, and I may be wrong.
I'm a human being, just like any of you.
And sometimes, when sparks fly, I tend to be the one who gets the most rubbish outta the lot. This is not an exaggeration. Sure, I may be late like 70% of the time, I may be a fucking retard most of the time, but in the end, everyone has their own flaws. Only if you have no flaws and are perfect in every single way, you may step out and slap me across the face, kick me to the floor and stone me. But if you aren't, I think that there is room for communication and improvement. The world doesn't revolve around any single body in this entire solar system *No, heaven is not in our solar system...*, and it never will.
*Sigh*
Well, to tell the truth, I actually don't mind tanking most of the shit people throw at me. I always tell myself, what doesn't kill you only makes you stronger, and I think that as an individual, I have grown and become stronger than who I was in the past. However, though it does not kill me, I want to say that it hurts. Sticks and stones may break my bones, but words they really hurt. It's a pain that can't be treated through tiger balm or yoko-yoko, and sometimes it just makes me sad. But if it really does make you feel good, then I'll step down as many times as I need, but please remember that not everyone can be like me. And though I have come so close to strangling people, there are still people who are concerned for me and will help me out. So I should do the same for the rest of you. To sum it all up, I just hope that some people will just be more considerate for the feelings of others and that they will realise that the defination of right and wrong varies and can conflict sometimes with the situation. I won' name names, and I won't point fingers, but I just want to post it out and I hope that maybe one day these people will chance upon my blog and read this and maybe look back and realise that they haven't exactly been perfect little angels all along. Sometimes, you must realise that your choices affect others more than you think and that as thick skin as they may be, they have feelings.
With that load off my mind, I really feel much lighter now in mind and soul *As much as I want to claim body there, C'mon, who am I kidding lolol* and I do aspire to do better in my life as well as hope and pray for the best for allthe other peeps out there. Oh oh! And also a special prayer for the people in Japan who have lost much. My heartfelt condolences to you guy, though it will not help you directly and maybe not at all, I do hope that disaster doesn't befall any of you again and that you may find the strenth to pull through and live on for the sake of those who have passed on and for those who have yet to live.
And last but not least, though there are more things I want to post about, that would have to wait! Its freaking seven a.m in the morning now and I am still awake? Wtf much? Haha actually I woke up at 5 a.m cause I was hungry and I decided to write in my blog to take up space on the internet Muahahaha lolol. But yea, I'll probably be posting more up soon, because no mattr how late, promises must be met. It's better to be late than never!
This is Daniel here,
Signing off!
Ciiiaozzz!!!
