Emotions tornado!!!!!

Sigh. I'm now stuck in a flurry of emotions. A tidal wave that i can't escape just comes crashing down upon me. And i think it's because of a single living organism that will not acknowledge me. Hmmmm, scrub that last line, I KNOW it is because of that hideous harbinger of complete insanity and idiocy. Who can say i never tried my best? When i first met you, some how due to some mistake you marked my name in red and blacklisted me. I never revealed it and i tried my best to make it up to you. I used to respect you as a target i must reach and a fellow duelist. However, the magic key words here are "used to". Recently, this past year and more whatever I could help you with, i did it. I did it willingly and yes sometimes i made joking and sarcastic remarks but wtf who doesn't? And i did do them in the end didn't i? Whenever you needed something from me, i NEVER turned you down! When you asked me to lend you cards i did without hesitation. When you needed to source out people to do certain jobs, i extended that helping hand to you and tried to find all possible options! And now, when i have done so much, you still refuse to acknowledge me? I know my YGO skills are nothing to boast about, but i certainly am sure 100% I am the man for Battle Spirits. I was really excited when u DISCUSSED the AFA plan with me and Laurance. YOU asked me myself if i was interested in joining, AND I FUCKING GAVE YOU MY ANSWER ON THE GOD DAMNED SPOT! And now, 1 day before the AFA you stab me in the back and tell me I am not part of the team, when amongst everyone I believe i was the most enthusiastic of them all? I have no idea what was going through in your mind. And these past few days I have been thinking...... exactly which part of me is that that causes you to see eye to eye with me. In the forums, you boldly typed that whoever has a problem should come to you directly and tell you about it. I gave you a call, you hanged up. I sent you a polite message to ask you about it, you never replied me. Where are all your promises? If you need a reason as to why i want to go, it would be because i like to share the things that i enjoy with other people! I DON'T ONLY THINK ABOUT ME, ME and ME! I believe that if I have a part in building something from scratch and overseeing it to the end, it will result in something that is better than the rest! Not just some cheap copied product that can be found anywhere in the damned world! Also, you said that you did not recognise me as the Battle Spirits champion. True, the tournament that Co-Co had attended only had a meager amount of players, but who is to blame? Was i the fucking asshole who sent you to ram into a mirror force? And FYI i beat you fair and square in the first ever BS tourny held in WOJJ! Thats where i got my Leo-Dragon if you still need more evidence. You argued that it wasn't a fair win as i killed your deck by telling you your effects were wrong and that i overpowered my effects! NOW I TELL YOU! READ THE BS02 CARD LIST! IF YOU HAVE BALLS, YOU CAN START TELLING ME WHICH CARD IN MY ENTIRE DECK DID I GIVE YOU AS A WRONG EFFECT? ALL OF THEM WERE CORRECT AND THIS WAS SO AS I SPENT 1 ENTIRE MONTH TRANSLATING AND MODDING MY DECK, AND IT SO HAPPENS THAT THE DECK I MADE WAS MADE YOUR YOUR FREAKING PILE OF EXTRA CARDS AND IT BEAT YOUR DECK WHICH IS WORTH <$200 WHILE MINE COST $22.50. I will admit that i did get 1 effect wrong though and that was Chauws effect. And also, ever since the English battle spirits launched, i had been consecutively been winning the tournaments again and again. Once you even joined in and i met you in the second round! What happened? You got raped even though you had 2 Sheyrons and 1 Desperado along with some other small fries! And yet, once again you tell me that you do not recognise my ability. I find this regrettable. I want to know where could i have gone wrong. Or could it be that there is something wrong with you? You introduced me to the game and encouraged me to play it, and now look at yourself. You are shooting me down, and for what god damned reason is what I and the rest of the gang would like to know. And to tell you the truth, i think that there is no reason at all! If there was a reason, then why don't you tell me and then maybe something can be worked out????

Today, when i went to the AFA in the morning I still resented what you did, but with the help and support from my friends, i decided to let it slide and see if you could tell me what is it that i did wrong. Once again no answer. I force myself to smile to you and when i do that, i feel bad. Not because of you, but it is because i feel like i am cheating myself. My mind is screaming at me "WHY THE FUCK ARE YOU PRETENDING NOTHING HAPPENED EVEN THOUGH THIS ORGANISM TOTALLY BETRAYED THE TRUST YOU PUT IN HIM???" but deep down i believe that everything happens for a reason and I believe everyone deserves a chance. But the problem now is that I have given you so many chances that it seems so fucking pointless that even I am at a loss with what to do with you. When ever you talk to me now there is this air of awkwardness that i never wanted to be in the first place, but your stupidity is so great that it blocks out the sun and darkness befalls us all. Whatever i say just bounces off your damned head! So please tell me how am i going to make you understand that this treatment you are giving me is unfair and unjust? If you were in my shoes how do you think you would feel? I really want to give you a taste of your own medicine but i detest resorting to your methods to proving my point so i will take the honorable path instead. If you won't acknowledge me and what i do, I will make the whole of MOV acknowledge me then! After all, you have already blocked out my sun for so long? What is wallowing a little longer in the darkness, when you practically drowned me in it for an eternity?

One thing i would like you to know is that if you want someone to respect you, you jolly well show some respect to that person too!

...................................I have spent a substantial amount of time pouring these feelings of anguish and resent into this post. If you ever, ever read this, i hope you can comprehend the meaning behind it. The reason why i do not prosecute you and go medieval on you is because i believe change will come some day and when that time comes, i hope you are ready cause it is either going to be retribution or compensation. And no matter what, i will win in the end.

Okies, after that i feel much better. I know it is a little late, but i just had to get myself together to think about it first and foremost. About the AFA, I will post after the Whole AFA is over and when i get my pics from XJ and Ryan. So stay tuned till then! Btw, score another one for Daniel as i won the Bs tourny yet again with my trustworthy BS01 deck! My sincere thanks to Qing Wen who believed in me! The BS grand tourny is coming next week and i plan for it to be my centre stage and know that i will claim victory cause unlike you, I don't call it quits and i never stop giving my all no matter what i do!
Signing Off,
Daniel.